Ever hear the saying ” Don’t cross an ocean for someone who won’t step over a puddle for you”? Well normally I would disagree because I believe in showing grace and mercy to just about everyone, but as of lately I have been pushed to the point that I can not continue to be so gracious.
Remember that ex boyfriend of mine… yeah that jerk! Well guess who very stupidly used her great credit to financed him his dream car? If you guess it was me, you would be correct.
For the record… NEVER, EVER, EVER DO ANYTHING AS STUPID AS THIS!!!! If someone can not get something on their own, they were not meant to have it! I am so beyond mad at myself! I have always made good, sound decision with everything I have done, but for this last period in my life I just totally dropped the ball!
So now after months of just plain tomfoolery, I have to clean up my mess and have two cars.
I kick myself so much for this, but I am not writing to air out all of my dirty laundry… I want to talk about breaking points.
Sometimes you get to a place where enough is enough. You are tired of yourself, the way you are being treated, the lies you are being fed, the abuse you are enduring, the crippling sadness and worry. You get tired of just being unhappy. Well enough is enough!
You deserve better! Everyone deserves to live the life that makes them happy, not because you are entitled to whatever you want, but it is our obligations to live this one life to the best of our abilities. So I am not sure about you, but I am done dealing with people who use me and make me feel less than. I am done struggling to make sure someone else is ok, when they wouldn’t do the same for me. I am done stunting my growth because they did not see fit to support me. I am done putting the needs of another before my own, when it is far from reciprocated! I’m done!
I have been doing so much growing this past year and I understand now my mistakes. I refuse to go back to where I was a year ago, 5 years ago, hell even 10 years ago! I have taken all that I can take, and I breaking my chains! My ancestors did not fight to survive for me to live a life less than!
So goodbye to anyone and anything that does not have my best interest at heart. So long to feeling like there is something wrong with me. Laters to all to doubt and tears that stained my pillows. Good riddance to all the heartache!
I will not be defeated.